I remember rushing to target the day of these photos because I all of the sudden wanted the boys in yellow, and how stoked I was to find a yellow scarf for me to wear to match the boys.. I remember getting ready and burning my finger on the curling wand for the bagillionth time.
I remember how excited the boys were when we got to this big wheat field–they were ready to explore.
I remember our amazing photographer making me feel like such a gorgeous mama to be..
And thinking, oh what a photo that was… 😉
Things were. SO. GOOD.
I remember being shocked that Ayden sat and smiled and let someone else take pictures of him.. He was shy at times, but not this time.
I remember letting him wear the 2 different pair of socks because that was his norm, and I wanted that in the photos. I just LOVED that about him. Well, that and his wearing underwear backwards habit, but he couldn’t really show that one off for the photographer..haha.
I remember thinking…only 6 weeks until my 3rd child is born! I can’t wait to have family photos done again in 7 months when fall hits and she’s a little older.. How cute will those be?!
I never got those photos. When my little girl was only 8 weeks old, we lost our sweet 3.75 year old boy Ayden in a tragic accident. I realize most of you know this..
Today, I need your prayers. You see.. Our family photos are today. The ones he should be here with us to take. I didn’t/don’t want to take them without him! I want to create all of these memories for these families and clients of mine but I was not wanting to capture OUR life without Ayden in it! I almost refused. But I know better. I know Darryl & I need these photos, and I know Caleb and Kaelyn need these photos. And we won’t take them without Ayden… We have planned this for a long while and he will be in every photo, showing hope & love through us in the most creative and thoughtful ways possible. It will be so hard to not have him to hug, walk with, laugh with, and love on though.
I remember this amazing moment where my little boy came up and hugged me and was so sweetly smiling at me. What would I do without this moment in time forever frozen? This is such a gift.
Y’all…my mommy heart needs your prayers. Because I miss him & want him here. Oh if I could have this time back! I’d give anything.. For now, I have the memories.
“But I will hope continually, and will yet praise thee more and more.” Ps. 71:14
Amy - My prayer for you.
Dear Lord,
Please give this family comfort and strength today. Help them feel a peace only you can give, Lord. Let them know their sweet boy is with you in heaven watching over them and that they will be reunited one day. Let them look forward to the day they can hold their beautiful boy in their arms again.
In Jesus names I pray, Amen.
Sending love and comfort your way, Amy
Niki - Erin, my thoughts and prayers are with you today and always. hugs to you… xoxo
alana - my heart hurts & my throat cramps holding back tears for you Erin. I can only imagine the pain in your heart and how much each of you miss Ayden.